For the past 2 years I have been volunteering with the high school ministry at Buckhead Church– first as a member of host team and now (as of May) as a small group leader to an awesome group of senior girls. North Point choose the name “InsideOut” for high school and I think it is so appropriate because that is the desire I have for myself and each one of my girls. My desire is that we would all be so consumed with the love of God that we allow him to change us from the inside-out….just like what is described in what is one of my favorite worship songs.
A thousand times I’ve failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I’m caught in your grace
I feel like I fail A LOT. It is hard not to sit around and wait for the ”bad stuff” to happen because of how I’ve messed up. I am so thankful for the promise of God’s mercy– the act of Him not giving me what I deserve. I feel I don’t deserve His love after all the times I prioritize other things in my life over Him. And when I do mess up my natural reaction is to say “I promise I’ll never do it again!” but I know that wouldn’t be a true statement. I tend to make the same mistakes over and over but thankfully, His grace is right there waiting for me!
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
I love knowing there is no end to God’s grace and mercy because they are part of who He is and He is forever!
My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise, become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Giving God control should be a no-brainer yet, being a control freak, this can be very challenging. For whatever reason, I still would like to believe I can handle things. My sinful nature still likes to believe that God has enough other stuff going on and that I should just take care of certain things on my own. I need the words of this song to become a daily prayer for me as I strive to let my whole person be a reflection of Christ.
